Everyone takes action base on a reference towards the emotional state of PAIN and PLEASURE. Every judgement, every decision made by every human, though sometimes seems like kinda irrational, or seems like they've been made subconsciously, fact is, they are been made based on the above mentioned 2 emotional state.

All decisions made are either to avoid PAIN, or to gain PLEASURE.

As for me, I was having a email conversation with a friend of mine. Something triggers me. I noticed the fact that, a lot of friends around me has frequently told me that I'm that kind of people which couldn't lose. I throw tantrums whenever i'm in the loosing site.

Come to think about it, although i hate to admit it, it IS A FACT. Even those friends that when they told me this, i kinda find it quite ....... annoying. Sad to say, I'm a very very extremely damp 9 kiasu type of person.

But, come to think about it, I believe there's a solid reason behind all this. And to make it possitive, here's my verdict.

I hate to lose ever since the day i start to remember. I think hard, but still to no avail of finding the cause of it. I link the feeling of EXTREME PAIN so hard with losing that, at times, i even show bad sportsmanship. But, it's a good sign for me. My subconscious mind does all kinds of decision base on this thinking and in order to avoid extreme pain, that's my secret weapon that drives me into self improvement. As long as i can handle the tantrum and bad attitude part well, i believe this isn't a good thing at all.

And again, I would just like to say, yes, i admit, You said i am very kiasu, I won't deny that fact, but rather, instead of thinking that I'm kiasu, i would rather place myself in a higher class. I would say .....


                                     ...... I'm HIGHLY COMPETITIVE......