Was with Dan at Queensbay mall for our Weekend family day.

We somehow attended to this conversation on how often is it that the majority of the population are still withholding themselves back from doing the things that they actually wanted to do, because they are afraid of how the public and others might see them.

As usual, (for those that know me), I kinda encourage Dan on how she and everyone else should just-do-it, if that is really what they feel like doing it, like ME !! (yeah i know. That's a damn farking tua-lampa claim :p).

Natures call, and to the toilet.

I saw this 70+year old uncle, well dressed, holding his tongkat, hands trembling, trying hard to do something in front of the toilet.

It was really a very saddening scene. I have the urge of going forward to help him, but there was really a lot of people there at that moment. I was kinda shy, but still, I couldn't force myself to leave him far, as I couldn't leave him alone ....... I just couldn't.

I followed him slowly to the basin, washed his hands right beside him, while peeping my way thru the side of my glasses, seeing how slowly he washed his hand, one side at a time, while changing his tongkat from one side to another, trying to support himself well.

Everyone seems to be walking so fast, driving past us one by one on the hallway out.

At one time, some phrase -"Walk the Talk" - just striked me. I kept talking cock about the whole thing how everyone was withdrawn from doing the things they really wanna do, but didn't. Eventually, it turned out that I was the biggest @$$hole among them.

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When we were small, we get happy whenever other people praised us and gave a pet on our back. Someone once said that this is the so call "Gold Stars" award that is how we were trained all the way.

- We were trained that in order for us to get the "Gold Stars", we need to do something good.
- We were trained that for doing something good, we were suppose to get "Gold Stars" from others. (and if we were not given, then we feel sad/bad)

The solution to that is, stop asking for "Gold Stars" from others. Stop begging.
Start by giving yourself your own "Gold Stars".

And today, I finally got my own "Gold Stars".

Sometimes, you just don't need to have superpowers to be a superhero.

^_^