There's nothing more devastating that having a confidence breakdown. Sad to say, i just had one of this kinda experience lately.

I believe everyone has this kind of experience before. We just can not run away from going thru it. It all depends  on how well one will be able to handle it.

From what I  know, and interpret, confidence is built up thru a series  of BELIEFS. Let's imagine that, a belief is just like a table top. How strong the table top is, will depend on how stable it's legs are. We call the legs, the REFERENCE to the BELIEF.

Every now and then, everyone has their own belief. Thru our daily experience, and the input that we get from others, we use them as a reference to either strengthen (or weaken) the belief that we have within us.


According to Anthony Robbins, there are 3 different stages that can be categorized.

1. Opinion

2. Belief

3. Conviction

Everyone first start of by having an Opinion. From that opinion, we slowly gather information to build up the legs of our table top. Once the legs are strong and solid, the opinion will be embedded into our subconscious mind, and thus, makes it our personal BELIEF. A Conviction is something even stronger than a belief. It involves in a persons emotion and spirit. A person wuth such strong conviction is sometimes totally shunt off from any outer discrimination against their belief that they might go all out to even protect their conviction.


I have my own belief. But somehow, the screws of the legs of my table top get lossen, and eventually the whole table wobbles.  The entire badminton session during the last Sunday morning was a non-stop event of failure, pressure, stressed, and eventually leads to a total confidence breakdown, hazardous enough to even become a total emotional death that can not be recovered if handled negetively. I somehow screwed up the whole game.

I was totally depressed, sad, and filled with grief. It was really like dooms day to me, not because i lost, not because i performed poorly, but due to the fact that i couldn't control myself emotionally and totally have no control over my confidence. The feeling of so helpless is somewhat .....very very painful indeed,

I picked myself up again. I reckoned that i might be pressuring myself too much into winning. Pressure from my partner was so great that i wasn't able to play my normal game. I was so concern about my performance that i wasn't able to perform my usual stints. Everything i tried ended up as a joke. No problem. Everyone has this kinda issue every now and then. It is just a temporory issue that will be settled as soon as i get over this, and when that happens, I will be a better person, and more matured player, and when the next time this kinda thing happens again, I will be in a better position to handle it with confident.

It's time to start rebuilding the legs of my table top. This time, I will use a stronger screw and strong wood ;)